This one’s kind of personal, so if you don’t like personal blog posts then you should probably leave. If you DO like personal blog posts, then head over to livejournal after you’re done reading this, or something.

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These days, the only things I have to look forward to are Wednesdays (new comic book day), and playing World of Warcraft every night. And I’m perfectly happy doing these things. I think I’m in my geek renaissance; the things that comforted me as I grew up are once again relevant parts of my life.

It wasn’t always this way. There were times where I ignored the geek side of myself, and tried to be something else. I’m not sure what I was trying to be, but I do know that it wasn’t really who I am; I never felt secure in what I was becoming. I guess I was more concerned with what people thought of me than with what I really wanted.

This revelation scares me for a few reasons. The first reason is that I thought trying to “fit in” or change myself was something that I left behind after high school. This couldn’t be farther from the truth. In fact, it’s something you need to watch out for for the rest of your life.

The second thing that scares me about this is how the change was almost imperceptible. It happened gradually, and as such, I’m unable to point out exactly when it all started. What I do know now though, is that in some respects I’m happier now than I’ve been in years. I feel like I actually know myself, and that I’m able to be myself. Sure, I may be the oddball who thinks differently, says strange things, or has different hobbies. But those are all part of who I am.

left there to burn in their arrogance

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